Really sorry to hear as it is definitely a challenge. You’re going to hate me but I met my wife at a speed dating event 14 years ago and we were married 6 months later. While this advice is probably not going to be popular, at some point, if you wish to be in a relationship and/or married, you’re going to have to settle. That doesn’t mean settle for an abusive asshole. But settle in terms of you may not find all that you’re looking for in a mate. My final advice to anyone dating is to be honest. If you are only looking for a hookup be up front about it. If you want 17 children, be honest about that as well. With honesty, at least you have a chance in deciding what you may be settling for. All the best to you as you seem like a really fun person.